Sunday, February 26, 2006

aye. awake again
anyway,
here's the reason
why i created
another entry
for today:

this is a useless entry
the only purpose
of this
is to make it
a senseless long entry
one
that is relatively long
and brainless
perhaps
a little catchy too
but this it so
as to push
all the pictures
in my previous entries
to the bottom
of the blog
hence
not blocking
my tagboard
links
archives (new)
etc.
so
if you're reading
this line right now
i'm sorry for forcing
all of you
to read this meaningless
but effective
entry
thank you

digital love;
4:18:00 PM

ok, refunished my blog a little, since i have some time to play with i guess.
still having some little problems with the size of the pictures, but guess i'll sort it out later. too tired alreadi having not slept the previous night. good night!

digital love;
9:16:00 AM

Saturday, February 25, 2006

aye, and here i am again for my weekly posting.
so this week was a really long long week.



didn't do anything much, except for visiting places of "great" interest.
and i just booked out. on a sat. wif duty tomolo, wad the fuck?

anyway, had our very first parade rehearsal, and i swear its much tougher than most missions that we've done. sigh, the pain for what we deserve.
so off i go to meet a lil rabbit and then back to camp once again!

apparently i woke up with an aim in mind, which is to become a better person. chessy eh but for some reason i wanted to be more organised as a person, less sloppy. i shall not have any more "i have nothing to do " periods of time now. goal setting is perhaps what u call this. oh well, it's simply just one of the weird things you would think bout on a sunday morning.

anyway, celebrated cheryl's farewell cum birthday party ytd at what u can see above. had loads of great japanese food i supposed, since i'm not really into jap stuff.

sigh, after seeing a certain few blogs, i'm in a whirlwind once again, oh why oh why.think i've hurt some, but some has hurt me too. ugh i think i should jus turn brokeback eh ?

so it's now more or less confirm and i can rest easy.
21 more days to coms parade
21 more days to the end of the band of brothers
21 more days to the start of more shit
21 more days to perhaps a life without chionging no more?
and 28 more days to a night of sorrows

anyway, to any MSD or cpt ivan, who by some reason found this pathetic site of mine, i'm so sorry i didnt reali tell you all bout this.
and to my dear MSD, i so take back anything bad if i said anything of such on my blog, and i would say that i wanna join you ya.

so who's free on the march 11?

so my attempt at getting drunk failed, but nevertheless semi beats none
sorrows, depression and all that fuck crap were suppose to disappear, but as i now know drinking only makes it worse. you'll just simply think of these fucked up shit, which will just remain in your head.

i didnt sleep the whole night. i ran at 6am, swam at 730, headed for town at 1130, blogging at 1458. life is all but a timetable for me. its like in 28 days commissioning, 35 days commissioning ball with whom i'm not too sure. 360 days to ORD. sigh

anyway, i'm growing to like wearing sunglasses. not becz look cool or all that fuck jazz, but its like i feel invisible to all, like hiding under a cloth or something. with no worries and woe.

ok, here i am at the end of this entry and i've realised that its a pretty weird entry too but who cares eh

its missing something
the kind of thing like a great plate of punggol nasi lemak without the sambal
its feeling sucky
like making me watch jarhead like 10 times

why has things turned cloudy
and clouds will turn to rainy yesterdays,
with a brighter tomorrow in doubt

so here i am whining away in the open
in the middle of the wee morning
to my dear blog
who won't understand a damn shit that i'm saying

but isnt it better this way ?

it seems that problems and trouble will always come one after another
jus when it seems that when ns worries are over, winter arrives.
how things simply take an U turn is hurting.
reasons ? maybe i would like to know, maybe i wun too.
i'm depressed.

had quite a great time taking loadds of pictures. those things were really pretty. duty has been changed to tomoroow instead, but oh well, booking out on wed. and monday's the last exercise already! wooHoo!

anyway, was doing some boat exercise ytd and realised how slow the damn boat takes to reach back. hope the currents are stronger today, so as to speed up the lil ship.. =) 37more days

as i will drag my sorry little ass off to camp later (i know it'll happen) i'll probably be looking forward to nothing during the weekends.
oh how i wish ns all ended already, it's becoming such a burden and trouble for me and others.
so i guess i could onli look forward to the next weekend and guess wat, i have duty on sunday. *ouch